Thank you "losergirl" for inspiring me to post again 'cause look at me...it's been since before my 46th bday since I made my last "confession!"

Er,...posted!

O.k., so I am 141.0 as of this a.m. I have been working out since March 1st when we first got our weight machine. And I admit....while I have done more in 3 months than the months before that....I am not really doing what I need to do to shake this weight. I looked at my personal journal and saw that on Jan. 4th , 2008 I weighed 140....6 months later....tomorrow...I'll probably weigh in at the same amount.

I'm a bit surprised that I'm not down to at least 135....I haven't been exactly sitting on my ass the last three months....but well, could it be my age slowing my metab. down? I KNOW, I KNOW, I really must up my cardio.

There of COURSE are emotional issues connected to my weight. No, I don't over eat, I'm not an emotional eater...but there are emotional reasons why I don't work out enough. I don't want to discuss here but I know in my heart what's going on. And I can't seem to change things up right now due to circumstances.

But well, sometimes circumstances be damned...sometimes you have to stop using circumstances as a crutch.

Well the good news is, my kids will be coming up to visit in two days...they are here for the summer...my daughter might stay with us...who knows...but when they are up here I'm a bit more active and their dad always seems to send them up here 20 lbs overweight so I make it my mission to get my son to drop 20lbs and my daughter usually comes away losing 10 on her own but I just sit at 140-143...I don't move a pound...UGH!

But damn it, this summer we got the tread, AND weight machine and we might venture to the neighborhood pool....so maybe I stand a chance losing that damned 22lbs!!!

My size 6s and 7s taunt me.....my size 10's laugh at me...

I'll do it this summer...I will, I WILL!

~r~