Gawd...if I knew losing weight would be so easy (if I didn't drink and walked more) I would have done this back in summer of '06 when I first started realizing I was getting bigger and needed to do something serious about it!



When I see 136 on that scale I just won't believe it! I'll KNOW I'm on the road back, solidly and squarly!

Rubble

OMG...no..tell me it ain't so?! Could my wine have been stopping me from losing the weight???

My kids always come to me from their dad's in FL overweight...my poor son is only 5'3 as it is and he was 208!!!! My youngest was 145 on a 5'1 frame. She's gorgeous but I had to admit, this wasn't a good look for her...not from an esthetic point of view but a health issue.

So each summer I work on my son and send him home 20lbs less. This is the first time daughter has had to concern herself with weight. She usually sits at 130. So she's got 15 to lose, me 20 and my son 30.

A tall order for 10 weeks but do-able!

We're all in the same boat. Thankfully when my kids come up I'm busier and walk more (well, not when it's 111 degrees but thank God for a treadmill!) And my son can now also use our new weight machine...so that'll help and I control their food better-their father? I don't know what the hell he's thinking.

Both son and I tested ourselves at a blood pressure machine at a local grocery store...we were 131/80 and 131/75...prehypertensive Terrible...nothing that 20lbs less won't fix.

My problem has been under exercising...that's not a problem these days with them up here and I want to be a good role model so I did the unthinkable...

I gave up alcohol...for the summer!

I crave my wine at night but now I truly believe I was drinking my calories!

In 5 days, I've lost 3 lbs and I do think that was a large part of the problem...so the rest of the summer...until they return home...I will keep up the extra exercising and no drinks...and not much to drink except for water...ho hum...

I'll keep you posted...but I'm excited...if...er, WHEN I hit 136...it'll be the first time since leaving St. Pete that I was that weight! I left FL in April of 2006 at about 136-137 and then packed on another 9 lbs at the heaviest.

This is a good sign of good things to come..I just know it!

m.

Thank you "losergirl" for inspiring me to post again 'cause look at me...it's been since before my 46th bday since I made my last "confession!"

Er,...posted!

O.k., so I am 141.0 as of this a.m. I have been working out since March 1st when we first got our weight machine. And I admit....while I have done more in 3 months than the months before that....I am not really doing what I need to do to shake this weight. I looked at my personal journal and saw that on Jan. 4th , 2008 I weighed 140....6 months later....tomorrow...I'll probably weigh in at the same amount.

I'm a bit surprised that I'm not down to at least 135....I haven't been exactly sitting on my ass the last three months....but well, could it be my age slowing my metab. down? I KNOW, I KNOW, I really must up my cardio.

There of COURSE are emotional issues connected to my weight. No, I don't over eat, I'm not an emotional eater...but there are emotional reasons why I don't work out enough. I don't want to discuss here but I know in my heart what's going on. And I can't seem to change things up right now due to circumstances.

But well, sometimes circumstances be damned...sometimes you have to stop using circumstances as a crutch.

Well the good news is, my kids will be coming up to visit in two days...they are here for the summer...my daughter might stay with us...who knows...but when they are up here I'm a bit more active and their dad always seems to send them up here 20 lbs overweight so I make it my mission to get my son to drop 20lbs and my daughter usually comes away losing 10 on her own but I just sit at 140-143...I don't move a pound...UGH!

But damn it, this summer we got the tread, AND weight machine and we might venture to the neighborhood pool....so maybe I stand a chance losing that damned 22lbs!!!

My size 6s and 7s taunt me.....my size 10's laugh at me...

I'll do it this summer...I will, I WILL!

~r~

I'm soo pissed at myself, I could spit nails.

I'm 143....back in March I was 145....the other day I was 137...

Bottom line...after two and a half solid months of not having beer, eating better and exercising...I'm still practically where I started from.

120 by my birthday (May 20th)...what the hell was I THINKING!

130?? Nope.

Not even close.

Yeh, yeh, muscle weighs more, I've had lunch...been eating a couple too many sodium filled dill pickles...but still, come on...I've barely lost 5lbs in two months.

I say ramp it up...but I'm not...not enough.

My clothes still fit badly...I still hate looking at myself in the mirror...I have this thing in the middle getting in the way on all kinds of levels...



Moon in Scorpio...feeling intense anger and spitefulness towards myself.

I am soooo pissed....did I mention something about nails already.

Going to go help spread some mulch in the garden...burn off a few calories...

GAWD

The other day I weighed myself...UGH 142????? I'm eating better...haven't missed a day of working out in a month, I take the stairs two at a time...no beer since March 1st...

142??? WT ever lovin' F????

I was discouraged. And my clothes aren't fitting that much better.

I am no where near my goal weight I had set my sights on two months ago.

I had to really give myself a pep talk. I had to remind myself that yes, maybe it's the ole "muscle weighs more than fat" thing...I had to remind myself that the exercising was helping me from the inside out and giving my body a better over all infrastructure.

I had better flexibility, not like in my dancing days but better than 3 months ago!

Then I measured myself. I had gone from a 35" waist to a 32'1-/2?? I couldn't believe it. My top half and bottom had decreased by 1/8-1/4th inch. So it said to me, well Michele, you might not be drastically changing...but you are changing little-by-little.

So don't stop short of the finish line. Don't stop now.

Bday is two weeks away...no I'm not going to be 120 like I had hoped...or 130 like I had envisioned a month ago. I'll be lucky if I can weigh 138 with the slow way I lose weight. But it'll be better than the 145 I started out at on March 1st.

And finally I looked at myself square in the eye in the mirror and I admitted that while I was better about working out than I used to be, I was no where near where I knew I could be and so my results reflected the energy I was putting into it. You get what you put in to it...get a clue Michele...what does that tell you?

m.