*post topic inspired by "Walk A Mile In My Shoes" Blaqueman, author*

THE FOLLOWING POST IS INSPIRED BY OUR FRIEND BLAQUE'S RECENT POST....IT STARTED OFF AS A COMMENT BUT I THEN REALIZED IT WAS MORE OF A POST!

I DON'T EVEN EXPECT ANY COMMENTS...I JUST WANTED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST. WARNING, IT'S KIND OF AN R RATED POST...DON'T WANT TO OFFEND ANYONE...JUST BEING REAL AS BLAQUE ALWAYS IS WITH US.....

HERE WE GO:

..."I had the strangest dream the other night (so strange that I am going to blog about it.) I dreamed I was in the audience of a beauty contest show. The contestant (who was not all that young or beautiful, maybe she was supposed to be ME?) was being asked by the MC one of those "questions"..."If you could try and fufil one dream, what would it be?" The contestant thought and thought and then himmed and hawed about how she couldn't actually do it because of this, that and the other...(making excuses)and suddenly like on tv, it cuts back to the MC getting tired of her making excuses so from behind this posterboard he's holding in one hand, he pulls out a gun, sticks it to her head and says..."WHAT WILL YOU DO TO MAKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE!?" She instantly and with a very shaky voice started rattling off this whole game plan!!! Suddenly, with this gun to her temple, she stopped creating mental hurdles, emotional brick walls and whiney obstacle courses.

I woke up and thought...how many times do I just sit here waiting for things to happen to me? I wait for boats to come to me, I don't row out to them. I've been sitting on a couple of dreams because as horrid and uncomfortable as it's been sitting on them, the motivation to go out and really do anything about them hasn't been strong enough. What's-a-matter....do you need a GUN TO YOUR HEAD Rubble to inspire you to get off your ass?

And what about this 22lbs you've been threatening to take off for 2 years???HUH??? You need a gun to your head about that as well?

What if you HAD to get that weight off...what IF it were life or death? Bet you'd get off your ass and work, maybe it'd be babysteps but you'd do it damn it! You'd do it and you'd do it with a freaking smile on your face!

Sometimes we are such our own worse enemy...we are in one moment so kid gloves with ourselves (spoiling ourselves) and yet the next moment, we are our own harshest critics!!

We must strive (especially the older we get) to strike a balance of moderation...in everything. To go with the flow...to live our best life.

Just some random thoughts...thanks for letting me share them with you Blaque.

Good luck in your endeavors. Wish me luck to...I'm only 144lbs but that's up from 120 of '05 and I've always been in good shape (always a dancer, dance teacher, mom of three, active preschool teacher, gym rat-ette for three years....now look at me, looking all fuddy duddy with extra rolls I NEVER THE FUCK HAD!?? I'm disgusted with myself! I don't even want my fiance looking at me sometimes, much less touching me! And that's not fair to him BUT...that's how I feel. Lucky woman I am, he ALWAYS thinks I look sexy...puh-leeze....I CAN SEE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR!!!??? I'm only 5'2 so I can't afford this extra weight...I'm PHYSICALLY uncomfortable!! Certain sexual positions are not as great as they used to be because I either have to have sex OR breathe, I can't do both! (NOW THAT'S PATHETIC!!!)

....And I'm an APPLE shape...my weight is dangerous for my heart! :(

Good luck, good luck,...good LUCK! Let's DO IT THIS TIME...for our HEALTH and for our CHILDREN!!!! (and future grandbabies!) After all, yeh, we can go on living for years but it's about the QUALITY of your life...and feeling sexy, vital and having working erections IS quality...true? Oh and did I mention, being able to have sex in ANY position you so choose is QUALITY as well!!!"

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